I realised how long its been since I’d written my last blog, a v. long time & so much has been going on in my life. My epilepsy is still not controlled. I will try & cram it all in this blog but my health has been quite up & down.
My memory has taken a turn for the worst, seizures still no different, having them every day & just so tired from them. Now I seem to be doing things during my seizures that scare me.
Due to me having absence seizures, on Christmas Day morning around 7am I actually walked out the house without knowing I was doing so with an empty cereal bowl, as I thought I ate my cereals but obviously I’d thrown them in the bin without knowing. I then walked down the street & knocked on my neighbours door asking for Dean. I can’t remember this at all & feel anything can happen any time any day!
Epilepsy š has really run me down & caused me to get anxiety & depression. I even hear voices now & again but am due to see a Neuropsychologist about that as it has been most confusing & upsetting. I’ve even tried to catch what words I hear in my head but its so hard & upsetting. Also I’ve had those nasty thoughts which have been appearing in my mind now & then, most unpleasant. My Neurologist & epilepsy nurse know about this, they are so good as gold with me.
I even enrolled myself back at Talking Therapies but only got as far as speaking in an in-depth conversation on the phone. No appointment as yet. Hopefully that will help me too CBT or face-to-face counselling.
Big hugs to all that read this & sending my love xx